Tuesday, September 27, 2011

I'm Mad and Upset!

Why????

I was talking to a friend the other day and she shared with me that a friend of hers tried to commit suicide. She was upset because "her life was falling apart". Didn't like her job, broke up with her boyfriend, etc. Here is a healthy person with her life ahead of her ready to throw it all in. What is she thinking? What I'd like to do is to bring her (or anyone thinking of throwing the towel in ) to the chemo treatment room for one afternoon to see all the men and women fighting for their lives. These are people of all walks of life both old and young there for the purpose of extending the time they have left. These are courageous men and women willing to have chemicals flow through their bodies knowing that they will have side effects. But they are willing to go through vomiting, loss of appetite, loss of hair, hand and feet numbness, etc. It's so sad and frustrating to here of healthy people willing to end it all because they don't like the way things are going. How sad.

PLEASE, if you know anyone who is thinking of taking their life - share this info with them. I know I'd be willing to trade places with them for a clean bill of health!

Keep on dancing my friends.

Monday, September 12, 2011

Enough said! Have a great day and keep dancing (but with good looking guys)!

Friday, September 9, 2011

It's been a long stressful week as you can imagine. It's hard not to show how stressed you can be during test week.

CAT scan was Tuesday morning and went well. IV went in first time. They need to use a larger needle then my veins are use to because they need to shoot in the contrast quickly and the thinner needles wouldn't handle the pressure. I was actually out before my appointment. It's worth getting the at 7:00AM an be the first appointment.

Wednesday was a stress day waiting for the results. My doc appointment was 2:00 and we were there at 1:45. Due to a few emergencies we didn't see the Doctor until 3:45 (45 minutes past my chemo appt). The news is good, at least to me. Scan showed slight improvement in all areas. Doctor thought it should have better but I'm taking this as good news. Because my hands and feet are peeling, cracking and burning she wanted to reduce the dosage of the chemo. I persuaded her to keep it the same since we have some progress being made and I don't want to change anything up. She agreed as long as I call her if it gets worse. Of course her comment to me was that I never complain and she didn't trust me to call her so she told Mark to call if it got worse. LOL - like I tell him the whole truth when it comes to side effects. Chemo went well although because we were late we didn't get out until after 6PM. A long day.

All and all I'm doing well. Just very tired in the evening. It's hard not to be able to do what I did in the past. Am I the same person who use to run 30 miles and week??? But I'm accepting it and doing as much as I can. I just hate being a drain on anyone and its not my nature to ask for help. I use to be the one helping everyone else. I hope on day to get back it being that person.

Until anything comes up I leave you with two words - JUST DANCE!