Thursday, July 1

It's been a strange week full of ups and downs. OK - I have a confession to make. As much as I want to believe I'm "super women" even I have bad days and Friday was one of the worst. Worked all day and felt OK but not myself. For those of you who have seen me in the last few weeks you know that my hair was cut very short but still OK without covering. Well the past week it was falling out so much I was afraid I was clogging my drains plus the back was all patchy so it was time to get it all off. This was not a big deal since I've gone through it before and to tell the truth it just makes getting ready in the morning faster. Next stop Walgreen's to pick up supplied for my elbow. So I'm in Walgreen's and I feel something wet on my arm and wondering what it was. Well the infection in my elbow decided it was time to drain. When I got home I looked at it and held it over the sink and I've never seen anything drain like this. I won't go into it but I couldn't believe there was that much inside my arm. I also went through this exercise Saturday and Sunday until the majority of the infection was out and I'm now just watching and keeping it clean (although the doc has me on another antibiotic to make sure we get it 100%). So now it Friday evening and for some strange reason I get it into my head that if I go to sleep Friday night I wasn't going to wake up Saturday morning!!! A major PANIC ATTACK! Now I've never had one before but from what my friends have described I'm sure that is what it was. Poor Mark - he didn't know what to do. Believe me when I tell you it was very real. I'm trying to get things in order that needed to be done (just in case) but now I'm am soooo tired and afraid to go to sleep. As you could imagine I didn't get much rest that night but thankfully did get up around 5AM. Since then I did read the side effects on the LUPRIN antibiotic I was taking and saw one was "mood or mental changes". Hmmmmm Rest of the weekend was resting and reading. Didn't get much done.

Tuesday's blood test went like clockwork with my super duper sticker only having to stick me once!!!

Wednesday I woke up feeling so tired and had a bad headache. Because of my left elbow with the infection and my right shoulder with the muscle pull I'm only able to sleep in one position and my neck gets all sore creating a headache. It's not until I get up for a few hours that it feels better and my headache goes away. So I decided it was time to work out of the house for the morning since I needed to leave by noon to go to chemo.

Chemo went well. I had Nurse Angel (yes - that's her name) and decided anyone named Angel had to be good so I let her put in my IV. She had me a little nervous at first has she tapped away and was pushing and prodding. Probably took about 5 minutes until she was confident she had a vein. Well she did great and got it in in one try -Thank God!!! Also had Zometa which is a bone strengthener added to my cocktail of drugs so we were there until 6:30. But I felt great walking out and even better today!!! I wish this would last all week. I decided Thursday are the BEST day of the week!!!

I hope you all have a safe and restful 4th of July!!! Until next week thanks for all your thoughts and prayers.