Monday, August 2

Why are Monday's so bad???? You would think with resting over the weekend by Monday I'd be full of energy but it's probably the worst day of the week.

Last weeks chemo went as planned - nothing really exciting to report. It's just a waiting game right now until they take a CAT scan to see if this stuff is working. Not quite sure when they will schedule it for but hopefully I'll know this week. So far my chemo schedule runs through the end of the month.

I've been putting a lot of energy into this years golf outing which is Aug 21. We already have 90 golfers and 14 just coming for dinner. Usually we get a big push at the last two weeks so I'm expecting that we will have a large crowd this year. I've already gotten over $3000 in hole sponsors, 20 silent auction items and many raffle prizes donated. All our volunteers are in place (thanks) and have their assignments. I of course am not playing this year (but I hadn't planned on it after last years and how big it has gotten) so I'll have time to visit. I just need to pace myself since I'm usually exhausted by the end of the day at the past events.

The last and hardest part before the outing is going to my dad's and having to let him know what has been going over the last 4 months. I've kept it from him since he has so much going on and didn't want to worry him. However, his showing up and seeing me wouldn't work so I need to find time to get over to him. Not going to be fun on my end.

Last week I shared with you that I was angry. This week I'm just MAD! Not not crazy mad (although I'm sure the juries out on that one), just mad when I see people in cars or walking down the street smoking (sorry to my smoking friends). It just drive me nuts to see. Here I am fighting for my life (and have never smoked) while they just tempt fate. I just wish they could spend one afternoon in Infusion Therapy (fancy words for chemo center) and see everyone sitting there hooked up to toxic chemicals fighting to stay alive. Maybe that should be the next treatment for those wanting to quit smoking. Just one chemo treatment should do it! Sorry for getting on the soap box but just think about it!

Until next week.......